AFTER HOLIDAY BLAHS

I am beginning to feel today that the after holiday blahs are starting and the New Year isn't even here yet. I think there are several factors which contribute to this not the least of which is that some of the less than good news that one receives from friends during the holidays is beginning to sink in. There was plenty of news to rejoice about but somehow the bad stuff always seems to override the good--stuff like death, cancer, lukemia, 2 sons of friends who are the age of my son being sent to Irac after the first of the year--bloody awful stuff to "keep me on my knees," so to speak. Then there was the terribleness of today's news. In spite of all this I did have lunch with friends and the sharing was good among us.

Today has been one of those days when I couldn't find the things that I hide from myself which seems to happen all too often. In the process I scold myself and tell myself how inefficient and bumbling I am which then makes me feel worse. I did find 2 of the 3 things I was looking for so I guess that means I am only one third bad. However, one thing I was looking for caused me to completely unload the cabinet underneath my bathroom sink only to find that the item doesn't seem to exist. By then I was so tired of what seemed like standing on my head that I didn't try to put everything back. At least I know where my work starts tomorrow.

A late afternoon nap has my sleep screwed up tonight but I'm hoping that I can settle down soon. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. One can always hope.